I put my stuff in storage about 6 months ago and have been traveling the country the last couple of months, living in new cities and states each month. It has been the most incredible, life changing experience. It has been the biggest blessing to spend this adventure with the Lord and He keeps showing me new things about Him every day, and inspiring new passions inside of me to share with the world. You can read more about the journey that got me here up to this point below.
Whisper of Wild
Around the end of 2021, the Lord put the word “wild” on my heart.
At the time, I was in a bit of a rough patch with life. Work had become extremely stressful and I felt a little lost career wise. I was still processing through a very difficult breakup that had sent me reeling, and I just felt like I was wandering around aimlessly trying to navigate this thing we call life. I knew I wanted to follow God and live purposefully for Him, but I had no clue what that looked like for my life, or what steps to take to get there.
But then I heard it, that unmistakable voice of the Lord, telling me over and over again, “Wild.”
Pressing In I knew that it was undoubtedly the Holy Spirit putting this word on my heart and the Lord speaking it to my soul, but yet, I still had no clue what I was supposed to do with it.
Wild… what does that even mean? What am I supposed to make of this?
As the months went by, I just kept asking the Lord to reveal more to me about this word “wild”, and show me clearly what He wanted me to do with it. Honestly, it felt like silence for a while, and at times I felt impatient to understand the purpose of it, but I knew that the Lord had clearly spoken this word to me. I trusted, by faith, that He would reveal things to me according to His timing and His plan.
Wild Sunrise
And then it happened… the first moment of clarity.
I was on a trip to St. Croix, and I woke up early one morning to watch the sunrise on the most eastern tip of the island. To my surprise, when I got up to the top of the cliff to watch the sun rising above the horizon, there were only a few other cars. Those cars quickly cleared out after the sun made its appearance, and suddenly I found myself standing all alone in this magnificent place, and I felt the Holy Spirit rush in by my side. I have seen a lot of beautiful places in my life, but something was different about this place… it felt Holy. So much so that I was compelled to take off my shoes, and simply worship the Lord in the midst of this beautiful creation.
As I looked all around me to take in the majesty of it all, I realized something… there was nothing tame or refined about this place… the rock faces of the cliff walls were completely jagged, the ocean waves were crashing intensely against the cliffs, the sunshine rays were stretching all different directions across the horizon, the cactuses covering the land above the cliff edges were growing all over the place, and the rushing wind was blowing intensely all around me. It was powerful, it was intense, and yet, so lovely… Everything was so…. unrestrained, untamed, so free…
It was… It was WILD.
Yes, this was it! This was the wild I had been searching for. In a moment, everything started to make sense. This is what the Lord meant when He whispered that word to me.
Wild in the sense of being completely unrestrained… wild in the sense of being uncultivated and untamed… wild in the sense of existing completely, and naturally in the state that He created things to be in…. Wild in the sense of complete and total freedom.
The Journey Begins
Now that I had some more clarity on what the Lord meant when He put the word “wild” on my heart, I was ready to start the journey of developing this vision into something powerful for Him. I continued praying for clarity and for vision, and for the obedience to follow Him in whatever He called me to do.
I felt the Lord pushing me to go, even though I really did not know where I was supposed to go. I started working on building my business so that I could transition to self employed life, and began working on a plan to go on a big adventure out west. I prayed throughout the process and asked God to show me where to go. I started planning out the trip and allowed God to take the lead in guiding me. Throughout this year of planning and praying, the Lord continued giving me clarity on the word that he had placed on my heart and what to do with it.
I began to spend some more time pursuing my love of writing, and found a new sense of passion for sharing the Lord’s heart through my writings. As I continued receiving positive feedback from others every time I shared my writings, I started to realize that maybe the Lord wanted to speak through my writings to others' hearts.
The Lord also started talking to me through nature more, and I began to share what He spoke to me in nature to others. Again, as I continued to receive positive affirmations every time I shared something God spoke to me, I began to realize that maybe the Lord was giving me a gift to share with the world.
The pieces were slowly coming together, but there was still so much unknown. I continued asking God to give me clarity and vision for what He was calling me to, and the courage to follow whatever He had for me.
Leaving My Comfort
I really loved the life I had going, but I knew God was calling me to go and chase this vision He had placed on my heart. Honestly, I was so scared. I was comfortable where I was, and so much of me wanted to stay comfortable. The idea of adventuring into the unknown was so exciting on one hand, but so terrifying on the other…
One day I was really wrestling with these feelings, and so I just prayed and asked God to show me clearly that this was what He was calling me to in this season.
And dang, did the Lord answer that prayer.
I went to church the following day, and as the sermon wrapped up, the campus pastor came on stage to close out the message. He shared some updates that were going on in the church, and encouraged us all to take the leap of faith in our life that the Lord was calling us to. He talked about how he had recently watched the movie, “The Hobbit”, in which the main character goes out on adventure. He talked about how the main character wants people to join in the adventure, but they are all too comfortable where they are to join him.
Then, (in the clearest way every the Lord has ever answered a prayer) the pastor locked eyes with the crowd and said, “I don’t know who needs to hear this, but don’t miss out on the greatest adventure the Lord has for you because you are scared to leave the comfort of home.”
What in the world! I was like, ok God, got it, copy. Lol
From then on out, there was no looking back. I was ready to take the leap of faith and jump into the unknown.
Slowly Coming Together
I continued preparing and planning for the upcoming adventure, and praying that the Lord would continue giving me the vision for what He wanted me to do in this season. Slowly but surely, and in His timing, He would continue revealing insights into His vision for my life, and how I could share the gifts He has given me in this season.
God continued showing me new insights into the word “wild” and how I could begin to live a “wild” life for him. He also began to give me a passion for helping others find thier “wild”, and opportunities to share this idea with others. It was invigorating to talk about with others, and it felt like my soul was on fire anytime I would talk about living wild for the Lord. A new passion for sharing the insights the Lord had given me was coming alive within, and I wanted to share it with anyone that would listen.
I knew I wanted to help others live Wildly, but I was still a little fuzzy on how to make that happen and who specifically the Lord wanted me to reach….
But then it happened. The Lord is so faithful.
There is a Role
On my last Sunday before I started my journey, I went to my final church service at my home church. We had a guest speaker, Tauren Wells, who delivered a message that the Holy Spirit used to provide complete clarity on the vision the Lord had placed on my heart nearly a year and a half prior.
The pastor preached about the importance of the church, and how the Body of Christ can be such a beautiful thing when it is operating in the way that it was made to. He talked about spiritual gifts coming alive in a unique way when they are part of the body, and how the gift will function best and be most beautiful when it is used in the way the Lord intended it to be used. He compared it to a guitar string, and made the analogy that the one string played is not nearly as beautiful as when the string is played in harmony with the others. He also talked about church hurt, and how people will often criticize the church and pull away after being hurt. He validated the pain, but then challenged us with something I had never really been challenged with in the church. He looked out at us, and told us that instead of complaining and criticizing, change it. If we see a need in the church, fill it. If we see something that needs fixed, fix it.
Then the Lord spoke these precious words to my soul, that I heard as clear as the day He spoke the word, wild to me.
THERE IS A ROLE FOR WILD WOMEN IN THE CHURCH.
All coming together
This was it!!! This was the clarity I needed to really start pressing into the vision the Lord had given me.
If you read my about me, you know that I was used to always feel like a misfit in church. I never really fit the mold of the traditional Christian woman well, and I would often complain that there was no good ministries for women like me in the church. It felt like there were only ministries for mothers and wives, or women wanting to be those things…
There was nothing for women like me… women who wanted to be bold and fierce for the Lord. Women who wanted to say yes to life, and live completely in abandon for the Lord. Women who wanted to fearlessly chase after the Lord, and set their souls on fire for the gospel. Women who wanted to use their singleness as the precious gift it is to live fully sold out and focused on the Lord. Women who wanted to dare to see God do the impossible…
Women who were wild.
And so for years, I complained, and yet, did nothing. And here I was, being completely confronted with the truth, and challenged now to do something about it.
Lets do it
There is a role for wild women in the church, and I am so ready to start paving the way for the wild women to find their voice in the church and their power for the Lord. I have never been so passionate about anything before in my life, and I am so excited to watch how the Lord works through me in this adventure.
My plan is to start with my blog and tiktoks, and hopefully start to gradually grow it out from there. I would love to start some online bible studies, and maybe even develop a devotional or workbook for Wild Women. I am doing my best to be completely obedient to what God calls me to do, and just kind of seeing where God takes it. It is still a work in progress, and I am excited that you are joining me on this journey to see where God takes things!