God Made Me Wild

Emotional Duality: the ability to feel two differing things at the exact same time. A few weeks before turning 33, I reached out to a photographer to try to capture what I felt going into this year of life. There were so many emotions that didn’t seem like they should coexist, yet somehow together embodied everything I was feeling. Gratitude and grief. When I look at the last 33 years, I am so overwhelmed with […]

I was prepared for a challenge when I left for Puerto Rico on a mission trip. I was not prepared for a challenge when I returned home… but it turns out that returning to “normal” after a week spent serving God alongside a group of friends who became family is proving to be the most difficult part of the trip. After such a relationally rich and spiritually growing week, how are you supposed to just […]

Learning to love my neurodiverse self- Alex Koszeghy  I often share lighthearted little posts about having autism and joke about having a touch of the tism because it is easy for me to laugh at my quirks, oddities, and off the wall behavior. But there is another side of autism that can sometimes be tremendously hard for me to deal with-  one that is often the source of anxiety, shame and embarrassment. And this is […]

I like looking back when I hike. It’s fun to see how far I’ve made it on the trek, and it encourages me to keep persevering towards the top. I never look back with sadness or with longing to be back at the spot I am looking back at. I know it was just part of the journey and that greater things lie in front of me. Looking back only encourages me to push forward […]

I am choosing to speak a new narrative over myself. A narrative that comes from my Creator, and a narrative that will change the trajectory of my life. Recently I have realized that I have been believing the lies of the enemy in so many areas of my life for far too long. Even though my heart is surrendered to the Lord, I have discovered that there were many parts of my brain that were […]

This is not the life I pictured. 30 (almost 31) roaming the country solo with no permanent home address, unsure where I will be living each month, and figuring things out day by day as I go. Most days it feels exciting and like this beautiful life I could have never even begun to imagine, but some days it does feel heavy as I process the feelings of loss over what I had once thought […]

Here I am. Back in the throne room again. About to ask the King for the same gift yet again. Ready to hear the same rejecting answer from Him yet again… I don’t even know why I am here. If I am honest, I don’t even have any hope of Him granting my request. I’ve been through this process far too many times, for far too many years to only hear the same answer time […]

I love solo hiking. There is something so freeing and empowering about tackling a mountain alone. However, solo hiking also can bring about its own challenges and dangers, and it does require an extra bit of caution. I was recently embarking on a solo hike, and something just felt off. There was only one other car in the parking lot when I arrived, and my intuition was telling me to go to a more traversed […]

Paddleboarding is one of my favorite things! I love the peacefulness of being on the water, and the feeling of the sunshine rays reflecting off the water and hitting my face. Sometimes I get a little lost in the moment paddleboarding out, that I don’t give much thought to the fact I will have to paddleboard back in…. (and my luck, the wind is usually against me on the way back in) Recently my friend […]

Flowers are cool. I was on a hike recently when this rhododendron flower caught my attention. The colors were so beautifully vibrant , but what pulled me in was the fact that only half of the flower had bloomed. I had never seen something quite like it, and was fascinated that the one flower was blooming at different times! I guess it just wasn’t quite the time for the other buds to bloom just yet. […]